one week

one week from today, my final papers for the term are due.

as i'm sure i've mentioned before, i can't take my meds yet for adhd. the problem with that is that i not only struggle with attention and memory because of adhd, but depression itself causes some cognitive impairment and problems with attention and memory. so between the two, my mind feels pretty shot.

on top of that, my depression and anxiety have been worsening by the day. i'm having trouble sleeping and i've lost my appetite.

i am mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually exhausted. i see no way to get through the work i have to do this week. i have really hit a wall.

if i could still withdraw from my classes, i probably would. but if i fail, or even withdraw, it'd pretty much blow my chances of getting into school (in case you don't know, i've just been taking classes this year, and am supposed to be working on the application).

i think that i might have a chance to get through at least most of the work if i had the time and space to work and rest this weekend. but as it is, it's another weekend where i have class all day today and saturday (9-630 both days).

since i have so little energy these days, even these first two hours of class have already felt like too much for me. i'm already at the point of wanting to go home and sleep it off.

i wasn't feeling this badly last time i had class all weekend, and as it was, it took me about two days to recover from the two days of classes. seeing as i have so much work to do, i won't really have the time to rest and recoup.

so, i'm feeling pretty screwed. i feel like i've hit the breaking point. i don't know how the hell to get through this weekend, much less this coming week.

due to all this, i would appreciate any prayers that you could raise up for me during this coming week.